I was in it most of the time. Sometimes I want to be in it again and again but sometimes I  just don’t want to be there anymore.

Usually I meet her in ‘it’ and I feel her so real..till my tears fall like rain.

I was on her bed too.. I could feel her pain..ahh how could she stand that?

Of course there was nurses who helped her, but I wanted to help her myself.

I gave my caress to her. That was so lovely.